So I want to start blogging. Its new and I want to be able to put my true thougts. But I'm afraid of people I know reading it. Not people who don't know me in person, but my family mostly. Can I remember and not say things that I don't want them to know? How honest and transparent can I be in front of people I have to face in person? I don't know. I will try it for now and see how it works. I want to be vulnerable and honest. So let's see how it goes.
Today was not a good day. But then its not been a good month, or year for that matter.
In April I lost my job. I was laid off, but I think they felt I was too highly paid for what I did. And if I was in their shoes I'd probably think the same. So here I am, 44 years old, the sole earned in out house and out of work. We were already pretty tight, and trying to live on 2/3rds of my salary is very hard to do. My mother in law helps generously. I hope she know how grateful I am. My mom helps as she can to. Again I'm thankful. I even applied for food benefits.(they gave us a whopping $16 a month. But its better than nothing.)
We have cut back and tried to juggle the bills. God has been very good to us. He has really come through and provided for us. And I am learning better how to trust. Not that im even close yet. But I will get there.
So this is going to be my journey. I am starting school in about a month. I got a loan the day I got accepted and took my placement tests. I may even get credit for time served at Fresno State. So we will see how that goes.
So welcome to the journey and thanks for your support.
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